I feel so stupid. I really had myself believing it was gonna happen. … I don’t wanna wait anymore. I don’t want to be patient. I’ve been patient long enough. I’m not happy, and I feel crappy all the time and I just think I’ve had it.
So, what are you gonna do? Only you can make you wait. Nobody else can. You need to decide what you want and what you’re willing to give up to get it. And then you gotta be okay with that, or you gotta be okay with waiting.
I could lose him if I push too hard.
You don’t really seem to have him now, at least not the way you wanna have him. You won’t get anything unless you ask for it. Then if you ask for it and you don’t get it, maybe it wasn’t worth having in the first place. Some things are just never meant to be, no matter much we wish they were.
Lorelai & Carolyn